Love, Loss and Motherhood

This week a two part special feature on CBC Radio aired about my journey as Everlee’s mom, and to becoming Finnegan’s mom. I chose to keep this quiet because I wasn’t sure how it was going to play out, and I wasn’t sure when it was going to air. But it did air this week and I couldn’t be happier with the outcome.

Ariana Kelland, an amazing journalist with the local CBC, contacted me back in the winter about doing a story about Everlee, infertility and my journey to becoming a mother again. I was a little hesitant about the idea in the back of my mind, but decided to go with it. It’s important to me to always break the silence about stillbirth and baby loss when I am presented with the opportunity to do so.

Ariana followed my pregnancy and visited me often during my 19 weeks of bed rest and again a few times after Finn was born and sculpted this beautiful piece for radio and the web. I can’t thank Ariana and the CBC enough for being interested in my story and helping to shed some light on a very sad situation that a lot of people feel they have to keep hidden in the shadows. My email inbox has been flooded all day with a lot of messages of support, and a lot of people who wanted to reach out and say they too have walked in my shoes, many before me and many after me.

Early on in this blog I wrote that I wanted Everlee’s life to be more than her death, and I really feel through all of the conversations and connections I have made that her little legacy has been to bring people together and start serious conversations for people who needed to have them.

So here’s the article, you can find the 10 minute audio clip embedded within the piece.

My blog has now had over 111,000 visitors. I want to thank each and every one of you that has helped me tell mine and Everlee’s story. It’s far from over, but knowing that you have been with me through the darkest of days and have helped me bring others light makes my heart and soul smile.