What a difference a new perspective can make.
I spent the night awake, worrying, wondering, hoping.. anxiously awaiting my appointment with my new doctor this morning at 11am. If you’ll recall the last one didn’t go so well:
After that appointment I ended up meeting with the managing nurse at the clinic I go to and complained about how I was treated. She was so apologetic and suggested maybe a fresh set of eyes and a fresh start for us would do well. And boy was she right.
In the time that has passed since I wrote that entry I have lost 27.3lbs (probably a little less since I did some celebrating today..) and have spent hours upon hours working on my own mental health, and overall well being.
I spent the night last night in agony wondering would all of my hard work be in vain? Would I be sent away again only to be told that my size was the only diagnosis I would be given? Would my health even be given consideration this time around?
My new doctor was a breath of fresh air. She said she wanted to do a number of tests (bloodwork mostly) to rule out anything that may be a risk in any subsequent pregnancy, if we’re lucky enough to get to that stage. She wants me to see the Maternal fetal Medicine specialist (essentially an extraordinarily high risk pregnancy doctor) to determine how we’ll approach a pregnancy next time around, and she said once that is done and we have a clear slate in front of us, we can start fertility treatments. Right now that looks like either August or September. With this sort of thing, it always a matter of timing.
*I* had to bring up my weight. She said I had done an amazing job, and that she knew I lead a healthy lifestyle before I was pregnant and she wasn’t at all concerned. She told me to keep doing what I’m doing. She said another 15-20lbs wouldn’t hurt, but she’s not concerned as long as I was healthy and mentally ready to move in this direction.
Night and day.
It has been so long since anything positive has happened for us, this day was everything we could have hoped for. So after 2 solid months of agonizing over every morsel of food I have put into my body, I had a cheeseburger, a beer and an ice cream! (Back to healthy clean eating tomorrow I promise!).
Darcy and I had promised ourselves that no matter what happened today that we would do something we both loved and enjoyed, so we spent the afternoon out on the water whale watching in our beautiful province of Newfoundland. The air was clean and crisp, the whales and birds were plentiful, and there was even a rainbow brought too us by a playful humpback. And for anyone who frequents baby loss blogs or groups, like I know so often many of my blogging friends do, they know the symbolism of a rainbow. And I think my little Everlee had something to do with bringing one to us today, even on the most sunshiny day… We caught a glimpse of our rainbow.
This is what hope feels like. I missed this feeling.
thats so amazing!!!!!!!!! finally some hope on this dark moments in your lives!! love you
I am beyond happy for you today. Excellent news! ❤
Truly Awesome 🙂
My heart feels so light after reading this!!! I can only imagine what a difference it’s made for you. Your eyes are seeing beauty again and your smile says it all.
Great News .. Congratulation on your weight loss Rhonda
It sounds like your new doctor is far more professional and compassionate than your last. Excellent news!
I am so happy for you guys got some great positivity and results from your new doctor! Way to go on your weightloss and thanks for sharing the beautiful pictures!!
Congratulations Rhonda on your weight loss. Iam blown away by the difference in the Doctors but am convinced that for everyone who graduated at the top of the class they is one who graduated at the bottom. Thank goodness you are now dealing with a top of the class Doctor. Keep up the good work and the brighter attitude it is necessary for both of you. Again, congratulations and keep positive.
What wonderful news 🙂 I’m so glad the new doctor is so much better for you. And what fantastic photos!
Congratulations on your weightloss. So glad you finally got a bit of good news for a change and your photos are amazing!
I am just now getting around to reading your last few entries but obviously I have been following on twitter. What a difference with the new doctor, it’s amazing. Great job on the weightloss, I know the battle, I deal with it everyday and will continue to battle with that.